Emery's due date

Today is the day... Her due date. Honestly, I thought I would be more devastated, but I'm doing okay.

I feel sad and wonder what things would be like, but it helps that I am expecting again. It eases the pain and I know if I didn't experience the loss of Emery I wouldn't have this little one. It helps me to keep saying that. Just wanted to write a little post about Emery today since I miss and love her. XOXO

I did make a decision that tomorrow I will be placing all of the mementos I have of Emery in a beautiful box for me to keep instead of having everything on display. A new start to 2015. I will never forgot, but I know it's time for me to "move on" and make room to display things from my living children. I feel really good about that decision and I can look at the box anytime I want, but I won't have a constant reminder of it every time I walk down my stairs. I'll still have my serenity garden, but that's different. (At least to me and that's all that matters!) :-) 

Happy due date, Emery! I'll see you again in heaven! 

XOXO