"Calm down mama"

"Calm down mama, I be careful" - the infamous words spoken to me by a little 2 year old last night as she took a bench from her sisters room and put it ON her bed ready to jump from it. Which illicitated a big fat no from me! As my parents call her, she was in full Lindsay Vonn mode last night! I'm focusing on the calm down mama part! I know I need to calm down about some things (no, I'm never going to let her jump from the bench from the bed...), but I know I am so tense at times. The house is never clean enough, there is always laundry, I'm never going to get that work out in 7 days a week, I'm not always going to have dinner on the table by 5pm (and if I do it's probably corn dogs and Cheetos). I guess I'm saying I need to relax more. It's so hard for me. It's going along with how I've been feeling though, I need to find time to enjoy life a little more! Don't get me wrong, I have lots of fun, but I am always worried about things not getting done and feeling pressure and like a failure! My husband always says "you can't just sit down and relax" and he's right (don't tell him!). I'm going to try to relax more and NOT worry about the dishes or the clothes or letting a work out slip. I would be sad if someday all they had to say at my funeral was "she always had a clean house". I want folks to say "man she lived life to the fullest". I owe it to me, my kids, and my husband to "calm down"! 

Change of subject... Tomorrow is mayo clinic day! Scans for my dad. I'm feeling anxious about it. It's the first time we are going to see how things are since the scare a few weeks ago. Although, anxious I'm feeling good, because my dad is feeling so good. I'm hoping that's an excellent sign! Doesn't matter what we hear tomorrow, the plan is to fight, fight, fight! I just wish this wasn't part of our lives...but it is and we will continue to pray and be positive! Dad turns 57 on the 5th and honestly the doctors didn't think that would happen so I'm glad to prove them all wrong! They thought a few months and here we are on the 8th month and looking at many many more! Screw you cancer! (Not very positive I know, but I can tell cancer to screw itself and still be optimistic about the outcome)! ;-) 

XOXO

As I am writing this another Lindsay Vonn moment... (Flung herself over the chair and was stuck)!