Deleted (11/25/14)

Well, I decided the other day to delete all the miscarriage groups I belonged to on facebook. I had opened up my facebook page and right there in my newsfeed I saw a post about a miscarriage at 10 weeks and I couldn't handle it! I need positive thoughts right now and I can't let my mind go there. I even made the painful decision to not attend the babies gone too soon group tonight. I love that group and fully plan to attend in the future, but I just couldn't bring myself to go and have loss on my mind right now! I just can't do it (and it doesn't help that the kiddos are under the weather and the roads are icky so my gut is just telling me to stay home). I already hate that I think about it everyday! I'm sure it's only natural, but I'll feel a lot better after my 8 week ultrasound on December 17th! 

Only 3 more weeks and I can see my little baby! I pray everyday that everything is okay and we will see a heartbeat. We plan to announce the pregnancy to everyone on New Year's Eve, Emery's due date. A little bitter, but very very sweet! I will be 10 weeks along and provided everything is going well, I will feel comfortable sharing at that time. Can't believe I am already 5 weeks pregnant! It's already going fast and I'm sure these next 3 weeks will fly by and then 2 more after that to New Year's Eve!  

Can't wait to tell my mom and dad tomorrow! This week has dragged on and I have wanted to tell my mom so bad so many times, but I didn't! I'm proud of myself! Can't wait to see their reactions when they open the present. I'm sure they will be shocked but not too surprised since we have toyed around with the idea, maybe surprised it actually happened! A new baby, something to be thankful for this holiday season. I'm feeling so happy and blessed. 

As far as pregnancy symptoms go I am feeling nauseous and it usually hits from 12pm to about 8pm. I will think I am fine and bam it hits me. I'm also still always tired. I'm hoping the kids sleep in a little tomorrow so I can as well. Again, I am thankful for symptoms because I do believe it means everything is doing what it should be to help the baby grow. 

XOXO