Pregnant? 11/17/14

So, I'm going to write some blogs, but I'm not going to publish them yet. I need to hold off until I feel ready to share these. Ben and I are trying for another baby! After months of toying with the idea we decided yes! I'm so excited, but a little nervous. I've been feeling slightly sick the last few days and keep eating to make the feeling go away! Ugh, we will avoid the scale for awhile. Today I experienced some very mild cramping and small drops of blood which was scary, but the doctor assured me it's not possible for it to be a miscarriage, I would either be getting my period early or experiencing implantation since the timing is just right. I'm trying not to stress out about it or get too excited. Basically, I'm trying not to think about it when all I can do is think about it! We will see, I should know soon enough if I'm pregnant or if it's back to the drawing board. :-) which can be fun! Ha... TMI I know. I just need to breathe and take one day at a time. If I am pregnant I am hoping to get through Thanksgiving without telling anyone and get to Christmas and tell our families and friends at that point. I would be about 9 weeks and would feel okay telling family then and waiting a little longer to announce it to everyone else. I feel like a fool waiting because I'm such an advocate for sharing early, but I'm terrified of another miscarriage and would rather keep it private. I know I can't think like that, but I can't help it. Only positive thoughts from here on out. 

Here's to possitivity and the possibility of life in the near future! 

XOXO